butterflies

March 11, 2005

butterflies

Filed under: good time girl — petiteanglaiseparis @ 11:47 am

I’m all in a turmoil today.

Mr Frog has now departed and is chaperoning my long lost Tadpole back to Paris tomorrow afternoon. In fact he’ll be seeing her in a couple of hours and will be able to cover her soft red cheeks with a multitude of tiny kisses while I sit typing in my office trying (no doubt unsuccessfully) not to feel insanely jealous.

It has been rather odd her being away for so long. I have coped by kind of “switching off”, winding the clocks back twenty months or so to a time when I wasn’t yet a mother. I’m sure I will think that she has changed and grown up beyond belief when I see her again. A whole host of new words will greet me. I will have missed important things, like her building her first snowman. Apparently she has a new pair of fur-lined boots that grandma bought. She is so fond of them that she refuses to take them off at bedtime. I hope they are not too hideous, but nevertheless fear the worst as belle mère and I do not exactly see eye to eye on questions of infant fashion.

The last time I phoned, Tadpole refused to talk at all, handing the receiver back to mamie with a brusque “C’est fini!”. I know I shouldn’t read anything into this, as toddlers are anything but predictable, logical beings, but all the same it was a bit of a slap in the face. Her voice sounded so distant and so, well, French I suppose. I’m looking forward to our trip to the UK at Easter to redress the language balance with a liberal dose of Yorkshire.

But before I get to the tearful reunion at the Gare de Lyon, my stomach is all a-flutter about the fact that I’m meeting all these expat blogger strangers in a bar at 7 pm tonight.

Who would have thought that there were so many of us, or that some souls would be willing to hop on a TGV to come and meet up. Oh lord, I hope the bar is okay… I hope everyone gets on. I only facilitated the whole thing, like a kind of expat friendship matchmaking service (maybe I should go into business?), but I do feel a teensy bit responsible for the outcome.

And I have no idea what to wear. How I want to be perceived. That sort of highly superficial thing that shouldn’t be important, but IS.

Does my bum look big in this?

Comments (15)

15 Comments

My God!
I mean – absoLUTEly NOTHING to do with your current blog; but I just read your “32 things”……. fancy meeting (?) somebody else who gets excited at the discovery of a kit-kat that went wrong and the wafer bit’s missing! They ARE so much nicer, n’est ce-pas?:lol:

Comment by Andy — March 11, 2005 @ 4:09 pm
I was so nervous for my first blog meet (in May last year) but you already know you’ve got something in common, these people all visit your blog because they feel that affinity. I’m sure you’ll have a brilliant time!

:cool:

Comment by witho — March 11, 2005 @ 4:15 pm
//OH and I’m in my work clothes. Stuff it, I say. ;)//

Me too… (I’m just glad I don’t work in an abbatoir, that’s all ;-))

Comment by Iain — March 11, 2005 @ 4:22 pm
have fun. i’m looking forward to a report of how things went.

Comment by maryse — March 11, 2005 @ 9:00 pm
A liberal dose of Yorkshire can fix most things,be they real,imaginary,trivial or just plain daft.Take it from one who knows.

Comment by Tyke — March 11, 2005 @ 10:10 pm
I am so totally jealous…

A Parisian bar and a whole bunch of bloggers. Sounds like a great night out!!! Bit to far to get to from here but…

So, I will go back to NZ in 3 weeks and maybe meet my first ever blogger over there instead… If I get up the nerve to say! Hey! Wanna go to Ponsonby for a drink??

Comment by deeleea — March 12, 2005 @ 1:54 am
Jealousy is not a pretty thing.
I AM JEALOUS!!!

Comment by Sammy — March 12, 2005 @ 9:29 am
im so jealous too and instead of being home where i wanted to be im bloody working in grenoble. i thought of you all during my interminable rehearsal. hope it was fab.
i know what you mean about the missing thing, touring is a bit like that.
also its a comfort to know you dont read everyone who reads you’s blogs. how could you? lifes too short!!!!

Comment by ruth — March 12, 2005 @ 11:37 am
darn, wish I knew about it, would have loved to meet y’all!

Comment by laura @ cucina testa rossa — March 12, 2005 @ 3:24 pm
Hope it went well – lucky all of you..
As for being minus infant – remember absolute relief at being able to dress/organise me and noone else – but then bursting into tears in street at sight of same age sprog. Maternal schizophrenia as usual. (oh but can’t they lovely grown-up. Mine are – mostly – though alas ageing parents function in life -apart from minding their sprogs – is irritating their grown-up children. You will see! Happy reunions with your little beloved….

Comment by grannyp — March 12, 2005 @ 6:05 pm
Hi:

Have you tested your feeds lately? None of them are working. I read your blog in a news aggregator and there are all kinds of errors. You can see this by clicking on any one of your links. For example:

http://www.petiteanglaise.com/feed

Can you check this?

Thanks!

Comment by Gary — March 13, 2005 @ 1:38 am
Hi Gary – I’ve looked at the feed in Firefox, Kinja and Bloglines today and don’t see any problems? I imagine it was just a temporary host server/SQL connection error … All better now.

Comment by petite — March 13, 2005 @ 2:16 pm
god…i am sorry i missed this. in a way i did’nt really….coz i’d actually walked into cafe klein around 19h-ish, just when i got a call announcing a mini emergency….thus preventing me from trying to look for people i don’t know in a dimly lit bar! *sigh*

so if anyone spotted a little girl with striped stockings, a jeans skirt and a green jacket on and made a quick exit….that was me! hope you’ll had fun!

:)

Comment by aru — March 13, 2005 @ 3:27 pm
what a shame aru – better luck next time, eh?

Comment by petite — March 14, 2005 @ 12:23 pm
definately. butterflies in stomach or not….i shall be there.

Comment by aru — March 15, 2005 @ 12:04 am