la parenthèse enchantée by petite anglaise

la parenthèse enchantée

13.06.2005 4:48 pmnavel gazing

I had the most wonderful, sensual, exciting, beautiful weekend. I felt so incredibly alive. Awakened. As though until now I had been merely sleepwalking through my life.

Now, back in Paris, back at my desk, nose streaming with a summer cold that manifested itself on the train journey home, I wish I didn’t feel like I simply dreamed it all.

I wish that Mr Frog hadn’t been sick this morning and bombarded me with distressing emails all day. I feel his pain, but I think I am the last person who can help.

It seems that there can be no happiness without guilt and remorse. No pleasure without anguish.

It almost feels like I’m being punished. Divine retribution.

16 comments

Tease! Now I really wonder what you’ve been up to.

céline | 5:26 pm
Train journey home indeed! Eurostar? TGV? The suspense is killing but don’t tell all yet.

Send his e-mails on to his mum.

Parkin Pig | 5:36 pm
#Don’t dream it’s over

Hope you’re feeling better soon.

Sierra | 6:02 pm
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!! Don’t do this, Petite. It is one thing to say you had a beautiful weekend and now life is back to life, quite another to start feeling guilty. You have not done anything intentionally. If you had bumped Mr. Frog off or something, then you would have a good reason to feel guilty, but you didn’t, so don’t. Life changes and we have to roll with those changes. It will all be fine.

Leslie | 7:20 pm
You’re being a tease, petite…WE.WANT.DETAILS.

sammy | 7:20 pm
This reminds me when my wife left me a few years ago, telling me she needed time by herself to find herself back. She had forgotten to mention that her quest had begun a few weeks earlier, complete with the new love of her life, but hey, details, details… Unfortunately, her newly found happiness lasted less than two months… Her new beau had told her he needed time to find himself back. Details, details… C’est la vie!

jacques | 9:30 pm
Kind of like going out and having fun as a parent. The thought is always in the back of your mind that there will be a price to pay when you get back. That means you might as well enjoy the time to the fullest and then move on as quickly as you can when you get home.

Bob | 9:30 pm
That’s what trains do to you……take the plane!!

fella | 9:43 pm
Divine retribution… pffff
I don’t even believe you.

schuey | 1:54 am
I feel your confusion. It is hard when you are moving on but sad at what you have lost, elated at what might be. Trying hard not to be happy, unable to be anything but happy.
Someone once told me that only you know if it is worth it and then you live your life with that choice, so you enjoy it while it lasts, it might be for weeks hopefully it is forever.

Nicole | 3:53 am
OK …can we AT LEAST know WHERE you went??? The curisosity is killing me!
I think I know how you feel. When it happened to me (spending time with somebody else when I left my husband)I felt 10 years younger. I felt I had found myself back. Even though it didn’t last with this charming guy, it was so worth it, being able to feel this way. 7 years down the track it is still a beautiful and exciting memory. Enjoy it without guilt Petite.

Maurine au bout du monde | 4:00 am
oh flippity floo! don’t ask for mercy after you shag all weekend.

nardac | 4:18 am
Not divine retribution, just good old human emotion. The trouble with being fully able to experience the emotional highs is it means you’re also fully able to experience the emotional lows. But you can’t have one without the other, and the highs will come around again; they always do. Hang in there!

Zinnia Cyclamen | 7:46 am
Go back to sleepwalking. You are making me jealous. Seriously though, good for you.

Germain | 11:16 am
Karma can be a bitch.

cass | 10:00 pm
Hi Petite, I have been having problems posting comments to your site. This is another test. Will keep trying. Best wishes.

Angie | 11:32 pm